Rambles-in-shambles

The darkness eats at me 
creeping onto my skin 
goosebumps in domino effect
I can no longer protect 
myself from falling into the sin 
-of expectation. 
Seldom do I give in 
But tonight ,
I’m losing my mind .
Tired of running, 
away from possibilities 
Overwhelmed by bottled up 
insecurities 
Losing faith in the prospect
of the perfect
One. 

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